Hello my friends.
I am very sorry for my absence this past few weeks. As many of you know, and some may not, I struggle with my mental health, since an incident (head injury at work) over 4 years ago. This past month I have been in a very low place. I don’t want to dwell on this, but I thought you should be aware.
Sometimes, as mysterious as it seems, a crash can occur following a really exciting or positive event. And some times, a small seemingly minimal or meaningless negative or stressful thing can trigger a downward spiral.
I am still here. I am trying to continue creating…but it has been very hard. I struggle to paint when I am in a negative frame of mind. It’s as though deep down I feel like if I don’t feel happy and grateful all day, I am not allowed to feel happy and grateful for even just a few moments in time creating. But I know, logically, this just isn’t true. Every single moment we feel happy, we encourage a greater sense of happiness and desire more joy, which when we seek and discover, turns into a spiral of chasing joy and happiness and raising our mood and energy level. This is what I need right now.
Baby steps are so important, focusing on one step at a time, and just taking that very first step in the right direction is the key.
So I am taking some time to seek professional help, and put into place a self-care routine. For example, I just took a class about creative writing, focusing on journaling through your thoughts, the good the bad and the ugly. It was incredible, thanks to Darcy Patrick, the creator of the course and author of the book. In the end, we were directed and inspired to write our own guided meditations! The flow of the course was beautiful, and it all came together in the end. I loved it, and have been practicing daily journaling for a few weeks now…trying to improve on it as I go in order to face my feelings more openly and honestly, in a more healthy manner.
There are other things I am working on adding into my daily routine, such as meditation, and other things that I don’t wish to share with you at this time. But I will, when the time is right for us all.
Thank you for your patience and understanding.